Whiskey is a good friend.
Whenever I need someone who can chear me up, it's right there, one floor downstairs, in the liquor cabinet. No need to look for a friend who is willing to listen, and no need to bother them with my daily bullshit. Even better- it saves much energy that would otherwise be spent on worrying, or speaking while telling another unnecessary detail about my life. Instead, it smears an unexplained smile on my face. A different kind of friend, one that listens and talks, cannot do that. yeah after spending half hour or so they can make you "feel better" and make you feel more relaxed, but hell, they can't make you feel truly happy! Whiskey does! don't believe it? Try it! a couple of old fassion glasses, filled with some scotch or even irish that goes easier on the throat, and you feel better right away!
And then you start thinking "shit, that's the right way to becoming an alcoholic", only that doesn't help... because it sound so melancolic and dramatic. "Look what life has put me through!"... yeah right...
Like life is so hard to deal with that you have to turn to the best selling unconventional medication. Yeah, some people are in hard situations.. Some have to deal with death, broken families, wasted lives.. But I can't speak for those people.. All I do is enjoying the pathetic delight of being a victim of nothing. Right, I have went through some hard times but it's nothing compared to the shit people survive out there. And why does it seem so tempting to me? Is it the same reason depressed "Emo's" cut their veins- to damage their own bodies and feel sutisfied by it? Or is it because it seems so cool on TV when Hank Moody or any other depressed hero empties another glass, or takes another sip from his flask? Am I really so easy to influence by stupid media? Are there others like that?
Why do people tend to start smoking again at hard times? It seems that inflicting damage to themselves, ourselves, makes us more happy. Why is that?
I don't know.. and maybe I just don't wanna think about it...